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August 16, 2019August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

Dear Weight Watchers

August 6, 2019August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

#IAmNotDangerous

July 21, 2019August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

Me and My Secret Anxiety

July 14, 2019August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

The Paradox of Eating Disorder Services

June 13, 2019August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

A Confession From Me

April 14, 2019August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

Finishing Therapy

March 10, 2019August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

Body Positivity vs Body Neutrality

February 24, 2019August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

Myths vs Facts: Eating Disorders

February 21, 2019August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

Why I Became a Mental Health Nurse

February 3, 2019August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

Starting Therapy (Again)

January 16, 2019August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

50 Little Things That Make Me Happy

December 27, 2018August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

Post Christmas Diet Culture

December 7, 2018August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

Supporting Someone with an Eating Disorder at Christmas

October 25, 2018August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

Identity After Diagnosis

October 15, 2018August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

Medication: Symptoms or Side Effects?

September 29, 2018August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

The Price of Mania

September 19, 2018August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

Bipolar Disorder: Coping with Relapse

September 16, 2018August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

Bipolar Disorder: Recognising Relapse

September 9, 2018August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

Life After Suicide

September 5, 2018August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

The Problem with Unsolicited Body Comments

July 26, 2018August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

A Day in the Life: Mania

July 18, 2018August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

Gaining in Eating Disorder Recovery

July 9, 2018August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

A Day in the Life: Anorexia

July 3, 2018August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

Four Ways My Mental Illness Changed Me

June 18, 2018August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

How To Look After Your Mental Health Whilst Travelling

June 8, 2018August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

Stigma and Celebrity Suicides

April 25, 2018August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

How to Achieve the Perfect Bikini Body

April 16, 2018August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

How Does OSFED Feel?

April 9, 2018August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

How Does Anorexia Feel?

March 28, 2018August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

How Does Mania Feel?

March 19, 2018August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

How Does Depression Feel?

January 20, 2018August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

The Impact of Stigma

January 8, 2018August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

My Favourite Recovery Quotes

November 6, 2017August 17, 2022 Cara Lisette

Talking To Anorexia – A Review

September 4, 2017August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

To Medicate or Not to Medicate?

September 1, 2017August 18, 2022 Cara Lisette

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So it’s exactly a year (as of yesterday) since I found out I was pregnant. It was honestly extremely surprising because we weren’t expecting it quite so quickly, and it was also the day my EMDR training got approved which I knew that I wouldn’t be able to finish before going on maternity leave, so it was a day full of emotions! I honestly felt quite excited but absolutely petrified. We’d just put our house on the market, I knew there was the approaching chance I’d be getting redeployed - there was a lot going on. I also know that miscarriage rates are pretty high and with my history of how bad I’ve treated my body I didn’t really allow myself to believe it was real until we had our 8 week scan. At that point he was barely more than a teeny little shrimp with a heartbeat. I had some bleeding two days before my 12 week scan which was awful so we were prepared for the worst, but he was very happy in there and already looking like a tiny person. Hi pocket friends 🩷 Thanks for stopping by everyone 🩷 I always felt compelled to act on what anorexia told me because the consequences didn’t feel worth it if I didn’t - I’d feel panicky, sad and ashamed. But I vividly remember my therapist saying to me “nobody has a gun to your head stopping you from putting the spoon in your mouth”. It was direct but powerful. He was right. Nobody was forcing me to behave in ways that aligned with being ill. I had the choice whether to listen or not. So gradually I stopped listening. I’ve had a couple of treat days in the park recently which have been nice and it’s been good to enjoy the sun without it being too dangerous to take Beau out in it. It’s okay to take medication!! I know it can cause some shame and worry, and I know there’s a lot of misinformation and disinformation out there about it. But it’s okay to do what you need to do to stay alive. Postpartum mental illness is such a rollercoaster. If I’m not sad I’m hypomanic, if I’m not hypomanic I’m anxious, just in endless loop over and over again. I feel like I can’t settle the seesaw. Postpartum mental illness is something people consider to be so shameful but that shouldn’t be the case. You’re more likely to struggle with it if you have pre-existing difficulties, buts it’s an extremely vulnerable time for all women and can strike anyone. I’ve been really struggling with buying clothes since I had a baby. Most clothes I own don’t fit me but some do and it really hit me how hard it is trying to dress for a body that is constantly a different size, even in the same shops. I attach so much value to the number in my clothes and one of the things that has been the hardest with regards to accepting a new body is buying clothes in sizes I’ve never been before. I can’t buy anything on Vinted, for example, because I’m spread across different sizes. I went through my wardrobe and realised I’m currently wearing clothes in an XS and also a L. How can this be possible? My body isn’t drastically changing size every morning.
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