It’s my 50th post today!
Although I occasionally talk about other things, the main focus of this blog will always be mental health. I started it for two reasons: 1, to spread awareness about mental illness and 2, to help people already struggling to feel less alone. So for this milestone post, I wanted to stay true to that. However, with that in mind, I thought it would be nice to have a nice, positive and motivating post to mark this day that signifies me actually being committed to something for more than 3 months.
I recently reread Reasons to Stay Alive by Matt Haig for the thousandth time which is one of my all time favourite books. If you haven’t read it then you need to go and do so right this second. Well, maybe after you’ve read this post.
There’s a chapter in which he asks people to list all of their reasons to stay alive, and he also talks about his own throughout the book. It got me thinking about my own reasons; what are the things that keep me going when things get tough? I compiled the little list below over the last few weeks with this in mind, and it’s actually really helped me to notice my surroundings and to take note of things that are important to me.
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The sound of rain on my bedroom window when I’m under my duvet.
The way my cat pads his feet when he knows I’m going to feed him.
Opening my tent door in the morning at Glastonbury and seeing the colourful tent city surrounding me.
Feeling the sun on my face and knowing my freckles will be coming out.
Rewatching old episodes of RuPaul’s Drag Race over and over.
My best friends baby smiling at me.
Finding a really nice new nail varnish.
Looking at the stars when it’s really dark outside.
Riding my bike really fast.
Watching my bunnies wiggle their noses.
Hearing my feet crunch in the snow.
Travelling the world.
Running for longer than I ran the last time.
Making a difference to people.
Baking the perfect cake.
That feeling of anticipation that starts in October knowing that Christmas is approaching.
Laughing with my best friends.
Picking strawberries and blackberries at the farm.
Finding a really foamy bubble bath.
Free alcohol on long haul flights.
Watching Elf every single Christmas Day.
Finishing jigsaw puzzles.
That 20 minutes after I have a bath when I lay on my bed and my cat sits on my belly and falls asleep.
Finding cloud shapes.
Feeling the warmth of a new country when the plane doors open.
Learning new words.
The feeling of being completely engulfed in a hug from someone who loves me.
Meeting new animals.
Putting my feet into the sea for the very first time on holiday.
Having the chance and the privilege to spread awareness and being told that I’m genuinely helping people.
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I love making lists like this! It’s so important to reflect on the little (and the big) things in life that make it worth living, and having it written down makes it easier to think about on those days where things feel like they are starting to build up.
What are your reasons to stay alive?